lazyazz

wow.

it's funny how being unproductive can be so fulfilling and therapeutic sometimes. today i woke up had a bowl of cereal with soymilk and sat down.

i've only got up a handful of times to either grab a bottle of naked juice, or just get up and walk around a bit.

i watched about 3 episodes of six feet under,
i read a few chapters of jean genet,
i listened to some eckhart tolle's teaching, but i had to turn it off because him speaking so softly and slowly made me feel a little antsy. but i'm sure i'll come back to it later.

i had plans this afternoon, but i couldn't get a ride, and i'm sure the person i planned to do it with forgot i even mentioned it the other night. i'm going to make plans for tommorrow though, i feel like i need a good lunch and conversation.


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i wish i had $195 laying around my desk, because i would so totally purchase a toy watch.



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RANT: so i've been thinking, about the people in my life who are truly important to me. some of the ones who are the most important to me, dont even know it or don't believe it. and some of the ones who think they are important to me, really aren't. i know that makes me sounds so stingy and impersonable. but its the truth.

i realized i haven't really had a relationship thats lasted longer then 2 years and meant something. it seems like so many people have just come and gone, i wonder if it will ever mean anything, or it'll just be one of those habits. i'm not sure. i'd like to believe that once i get out of florida, things will change. im sure they will.